This place, this entire concept came out of the idea from myself and someone I will always remember fondly. Although that person is currently not involved in this project, doesn't mean that the door for that is always closed. This place will evolve over time. It's a place of truth, a shelter for the minds and voices for when they are needed. The principle idea is simple, every one's mind is beautiful, every one shines in their own way and for some reason people always try to break down anyone who may be slightly different because that tests their perception of reality. Anything different is dubbed weird when really, the 'weird' are the greatest, most creative, influential, beautiful people created on this earth. This place stands for strong, smart, opinionated minds that aren't afraid to be themselves and embrace it wholeheartedly. And hopefully, someone out there, will realize that maybe they are the same way and that they're beautiful too...and most importantly that they are never alone.
Life makes a lot of things look very hard, it's always a high stakes poker challenge. Every thing often feels as though all your chips are in and you're just sitting there, biting your nails down to the quick and waiting to see who will have the best hand...if your bluff was caught, if you were able to riddle your way through it, if you will make it. Although I personally do it often, you really shouldn't worry so much. Fight for what you know you love, protect what you care about, respect life and yourself and keep your head up. Even in the darkest of places, the light will come shining through eventually...
Two days ago I was given a card by someone who basically begged me to come join their team, doing something I haven't done in years, something my heart put aside, that my mind didn't think could happen, and now this door is opening possibly and I suddenly feel overwhelmed by possibility. I almost feel like there is hope for this avenue for me and it seems like this dream of mine...that it might come through, that I might be able to get it. I feel it in my gut that I want it, that I want to fight for it, that I will do whatever it takes to get it and even though it is terrifying that I can work it out somehow...and yet still there's this part of me that just can't stop trembling. I can't decide if it's from adrenaline or excitement or from nervousness or hell, even just the high dose of meds I'm on.
I could do this, I could be fucking great at this. But I could also get my heart and soul broken doing this.
Like I said, every day is a fucking gamble...Maybe we will just have to see what happens if I go all in...
As for this place, well...I kept having all these plans, they got so big climbing upon each other as though they were lego blocks making a castle and instead I decided to toss the plans out the window. Life happens and usually in the most beautiful way when it's unexpected and erratic. This is a place for the safety of a mind. This is a place where myself (and many other guest bloggers in the future) will feel safe enough to post about our lives, secure enough to know that it's okay to vent here and to know that it is very much needed. You can't hold everything in- not forever. It eats you alive and there is no need for that. I had a structure for this as I stated before but the past two or three days changed my life and for that, I am both grateful and terrified, I am also throwing out the way I planned before and changing it up. I feel good about this, in my heart, in my head, hell even in my gut...I feel good about these decisions.
I realize that so many people have this perception of me, of what they think they know about me and I also realize that 99.9% of it is complete gossip bull shit. This place, this is where I can be me. The real me. And while I encourage you to contact me via Twitter @PrettyLMdotcom or via Email @ info@prettylittleminds.com, I will not take diserespect or harassment. I also won't allow it to happen during conversations between comments with other readers. This place is supposed to be a safe place not just for myself to vent or for guest bloggers to, it's supposed to be safe for every one, that includes those who leave comments, send in emails or interact in any other way with this website. There will also at times be articles and posts regarding PTSD from trauma, abuse, rape and incest as well as psychological profiling regarding multiple case studies. There will be discussion of health, chronic illnesses, love, loss, family, work....life in general. If you don't like it, leave and don't look back. To those who do come back and continue to, I love your support and I appreciate it, especially in these times.
